When I began this novel I plunged in with my usual carefree swagger. Once I finished the first draft I began to realize how awful it was.

So I plunged into the second draft with reckless abandon, and before I finished I realized it was even worse!

Now, working on the third draft and going quietly insane, I’m trying to make every sentence and every paragraph work. And I wish I could be regain all that reckless, carefree spirit. The worst part of this is I’m certain that I’m overthinking the third draft. But I’m sure I’ll never know because I’m so deeply buried in it that I can barely comprehend what I’ve written.

It also occurs to me that I spent too many carefree years blogging. My writing was an undisciplined–fire and forget–hodge-podge.


About Yordie

I'm an avatar in Second Life where I star as the heroine of a virtual fantasy life. In the real world, I'm writing my debut sci-fi novel.
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4 Responses to Perfectionism

  1. riverpearl says:

    Well, in my experience, I’m sometimes aware that most things I’ve done haven’t really been wasted and although painful have added an ingredient to the whole. Then there’s timing; maybe we approach something a different way when we’re ready.

    I know that there can be serious, overthinking times and that carefree times can and do return. Maybe this is just another segment of the journey.


    • Yordie says:

      Hi Pearl… You always have an interesting point of view. I hope you are right about the carefree times returning. I’m looking for ways to get that back. Hemingway used to say something like, It’s good to strike while the iron is hot, but better to make the iron hot by striking. I’m not sure that works for me but I’m striking it every day.

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  2. sometimes we are our own worst critic!! Keep going Yordie. PS: I like the fire and forget!


    • Yordie says:

      Hi Cybele… thanks girlfriend. I’m having swings of emotions from wanting to get this thing done to wanting it perfect. Yeah, I like to fire and forget too, but it has really broken down my discipline or, more accurately, the little discipline I have.

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